MLK Jr Day

I get to go home today. I don't think you understand how excited this makes me.

I keep worrying about not living in the same area my parents and grandparents do after the wedding and after school and stuff. I want to go out and live in Alaska, and there aren't many big gaming companies in Oklahoma, but still. It's the whole I-want-my-mom-to-always-be-within-like-an-hours-drive-from-me thing, like she's got with her mama (my Nana).

Is that considered selfish or childish? Being afraid of moving away from your family even though I will be starting a family of my own with an amazing, God-fearing man, something that I have dreamed about for years? Or is this fear normal?

It's too early for my brain to be trying to process things like this.

Just Some Early Morning Musing

So I'm sitting here eating a breakfast of easy mac and watching Good Morning America. I feel sophisticated. Older. It's moments like these where I feel like I can do this whole growing-up-and-getting-married things.

Yesterday, however, was a different feeling entirely. Yesterday was the first gallery opening of the year/semester (which are the same thing in this instance) and the artist was a professor at OU who instead of telling us about himself let two of his beloved students show their portfolios. To me, it felt like he was showcasing his school more than telling us about himself and about his journey through the typographical realm. But it was really neat to see what other graphic design students are creating and knowing that that is what I and my friends are competing against...

But then the whole topic of internships came up, Jeff asking where all the OU professor's students have gotten internships and jobs and stuff like that. OU has alumni in almost all the major metropolis areas in the United States. I just sat at the back of the room.

Internships are highly encouraged, but I've got a couple of problems with this.

• I'm getting married in a few months.
• I cannot afford to do an internship where I don't get paid.
• I can't go off and find an internship in another state because I'm getting married.
• It is really frustrating.

I guess what I'm trying to say is this: Sure, maybe if I wasn't getting married then I would definitely go out and scour the continent for an internship this summer. But I am getting married. And I wouldn't change that for the world. Or an internship, in this situation.

Just the musings of me while I get ready in the morning.

This is the Beginning of Something Beautiful

Okay so I mentioned in a Facebook status that I should start a blog that follows the next five months leading up to my wedding and then continue it for however long I feel, documenting my journey from a college kid to a newly wed wife.

So I did it. Let's see how this goes!